God's sense of humor

In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. I think that for me its been more like playing Pinball with God. I try to do this and he bounces me back over here. I try to go there and he zips me back in another direction. I can laugh about it now since I've had a realization about that. Like I just finished saying in my last entry everything led up to this. Hasn't everything always led to something?  I guess you could say that about anything. Though I think the end game hadn't been reached and I think this next step of mine is it.
On Friday at work I started a list of the places I went and the things I did or didn't do and it was pretty amazing! Oh the things I learned along the way, the heart ache the breakups (thank goodness) the journeys I took. Its fascinating.
As my counselor would say I had a "breakthrough" a light bulb went on!

The funniest part is I'm not even there yet, I really don't know whats to come but I feel certain I can handle this job and that because it combines some of my favorite elements in life I think this is the right thing to do.

Yesterday I went snowshoeing up at Mt Hood. What a pretty drive it is to get there! My friend Tanya had put together a group to get her friends out and into the snow and it was great fun. The group of people were terrific! They all joke and laugh easily and are all caring thoughtfull people and it was just a really nice day. Afterwards I came home and got my taxes done and crunched some numbers to see about the reality of the next step. Its attainable but it won't be easy.

I also have to figure out what to do about my furniture and my things and what to do with my apartment. So I'm going to let the pieces fall where they may. I'm sure the Pinball game isn't over yet.

I also feel pretty good that all those people who shake their heads (lovingly at this point) at my new schemes are actually feeling pretty confident about this one. Anyone who's known me knows I'd be good at this job. The people I spent 4 weeks with in Majorca all knew this was my sort of thing. I was always the one gathering them up, organizing the timing, the walk, get to the bus, who has their sunscreen. None of them are surprised.

Until then I'll have to keep myself busy and not obsess about this....or is it too late :) I'm going to start packing! Ha!

I think I'll clean up my history of decisions and put it in here. Though I can't imagine its interesting for anyone but myself. Not sure if anyone is out there reading this. Aunt Maureen? Are you rolling your eyes yet? Just get on with it Karen! haha. I couldn't have done it without you always saying "hold on to the dream Karen"
Thank you,