Light in the Sky

Today was the first day it felt lighter outside. I love that day! It's the day you realize you will see the sun again in the evenings. Oh! it's one of my favorite days, next to the day when you first smell that crisp air that signals fall is here. We're on our way back to the sun! Lighter times are coming. It is a spirit lifter, I'm telling you! Though after today it's hard to lift my spirits higher really. At lunch I went for a walk and it was beautiful outside. The SUN came out! Yippee! I hadn't realized how I'd missed it until it was shining on my back and warming me up. Fantastic! This is such an amazing city. I walked around PSU campus and the Park Blocks which are my favorites. Right now all the big trees are bare and you can see all the buildings. It's so pretty. The sun would hit this pink brick building and that big old white church and it was just a nice day out! Then on my way back from a little walk later I realized how light it felt and life was good.

Last night after work I went for a walk. I like to do that, its more like a wander than a walk. (there's that word again) I usually am finding places I'd like to eat, shop, be. Its great. I went to the book store and had a fantastic time saying hi to all my friends (the books) in there. This book shop I like is as big as a city block and has 2-3 levels. I'm never sure how many. You wander from the pink room to the orange room to the purple room. Oh the books!
On the way home though I happened to wander past a restaurant that was closed except for a big long table full of people having a private get together. All laughing, not noticing us outsiders. Another big cafe on the corner was the same way. I felt like one of those people from the movies when you see them standing outside looking in at all the people having their converstaions and their laughs and you are just left outside to watch them. It was a pretty lonely moment I had. One of these days though I'll actually GO INSIDE and see what its like for myself.
Thats what I love about this city, people are friendly enough to allow you to come on in and join the fun.
Even the bums in this city are nice! A few weeks ago I was parking my car (borrowed temporarily) and I was trying to pay and my debit card seemed stuck and a homeless guy was on his way by and he stops me and says. "Happy New Year" and I said thank you and he points at the meter sign and says "free today" and walked off. Well, thank you very much. I hadn't a dime to give him (hence the card in the meter) so I just said thank you.

 On my big grocery shop night I walked past another homeless man who looked hungry and asked for some money and I've been trying to be more generous so I gave him enough for a slice of pizza and he shook my hand and said "God bless you" I thought that was nice.

So you never know I guess. This is the first time I've been in a city and not known anyone. Not had any family to fall back on. I was thinking about it last night. I've done something new here. My mom isn't here to make it all better. Though I kinda miss that. Dad would have a to-do list by now, I bet he doesn't miss that :)

I haven't abandoned the creative writing I have. Its alot of work and ALOT of memories that I tackle when I revisit it and sometimes I am not ready for that so I leave it. I'm almost finished with my story about Madagascar and that is one funny one. It's coming soon.

Karen (city girl~party of one)